Feeling Lost

I miss my mom. Not having her around makes me feel so lost. I'm getting ready to go to Vegas with a family friend. I should be excited. And I was, until just now. Suddenly I'm so sad. I wish I could have had an opportunity to travel with my mom just once more. I wish I could have her back. I wish she wasn't gone. Everything still feels so surreal. Like it's never going to feel real. And the thought of it never feeling real is so scary. Like I'll be in limbo forever.